NUCLEAR GUARDIANSHIP FORUM, On The Responsible Care of Radioactive Materials
Issue # 3, Spring 1994, p. 13.
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                               THE LONG DEATH

                              by Marge Piercy

              Radiation is like oppression
              the average daily kind of subliminal toothache
              you get almost used to, the stench
              of chlorine in the water, of smog in the wind.

              We comprehend the disasters of the moment,
              the nursing home fire, the river in flood
              pouring over the sandbag levee, the airplane
              crash with fragments of burnt bodies
              scattered among the hunks of twisted metal,
              the grenade in the marketplace; the sinking ship.

              But how to grasp a thing that does not
              kill you today or tomorrow
              but slowly from the inside in twenty years.
              How to feel that a corporate or governmental
              choice means we bear twisted genes and our
              grandchildren will be stillborn if our
              children are very lucky.

              Slow death can not be photographed for the six
              o'clock news. It's all statistical,
              the gross national product or the prime
              lending rate. Yet if our eyes saw
              in the right spectrum, how it would shine,
              lurid as magenta neon.

              If we could smell radiation like seeping
              gas, if we could sense it as heat, if we
              could hear it as a low ominous roar
              of the earth shifting, then we would not sit
              and be poisoned while industry spokesmen
              talk of acceptable millirems and .02
              cancer per population thousand.

              We acquiesce at murder so long as it is slow,
              murder from asbestos dust, from tobacco,
              from lead in the water, from sulphur in the air,
              and fourteen years later statistics are printed
              on the rise in leukemia among children.
              We never see their faces. They never stand,
              those poisoned children together in a courtyard,
              and are gunned down by men in three-piece suits.

              The shipyard workers who built nuclear
              submarines, the soldiers who were marched
              into the Nevada desert to be tested by the
              H-bomb, the people who work in power plants,
              they die quietly years after in hospital
              ward and not on the evening news.

              The soft spring rain floats down and the air
              is perfumed with pine and earth. Seedlings
              drink it in, robins sop it in puddles,
              you run in it and feel clean and strong,
              the spring rain blowing from the irradiated
              cloud over the power plant.

              Radiation is oppression, the daily average
              kind, the kind you're almost used to
              and live with as the years abrade you,
              high blood pressure, ulcers, cramps, migraine,
              a hacking cough; you take it inside
              and it becomes pain and you say, not
              They are killing me, but I am sick now.

   Marge Piercy is the author of twelve collections of poetry,
   including the Moon Is Always Female and Mars and Her Children. In
   1990 her poetry won the Golden Rose, the oldest poetry award in
   the country. She says, "It is hard to see how there could be a
   better use [for this poem. Nuclear Guardianship] is exactly what
   the poem was written to accomplish."

   "The Long Death" is from Circles on the Water by Marge Piercy.
   Copyright © 1982 by Marge Piercy. Reprinted by permission of
   Alfred A. Knopf, Inc.